Running in Circles

Wazungu is a Swahili word that Tanzanians use when referring to white people. But, it means more than just “white person.” It means people who are always running in circles.

Have you ever reheated your coffee in the microwave? Lord bless all of us who are so busy we can’t even mange to finish a cup of coffee before it gets cold. Have you ever reheated your coffee multiple times? Have you ever forgotten that you have reheated your coffee? This happened to me so many times when I was a Pharmacy Tech in Montana. I’m talking about finding the coffee in the microwave hours later. Yes, hours later.

One evening, shortly after I started attending the college group where I am now one of the leaders, our worship leader led us in a song that I had never heard before. As I listened to the song, I found myself confused. Here’s why. The lyrics to the song are as follows:

 

“I’m so forgetful, but You always remind me

You’re the only one who brings me peace.

So I come, Lord, I come

To tell You I love You.

To tell You I need You.

To tell you there’s no better place for me than in Your arms. 

To tell You I’m sorry for running in circles

For placing my focus on the ways, not on Your face.”

 

– Running in Circles by United Pursuit

 

I thought to myself, “Hmmm… I don’t know about y’all in this college group, but I love Jesus and wouldn’t “forget” about God’s love towards me.” In the middle of this thought, God asked me how many times I had reheated my coffee that very same day at work. Talk about a slap in the face. It opened my eyes to the truth that if I can forget what I had done 45 seconds ago, I could surely forget that only God brings me peace.

 

Here’s how I’ve been running in circles lately:

*Forgetting my water bottle when going to fill the water bottle up.

*WHAT DAY OF THE WEEK IT IS. I seriously slept through Monday because of this stupid virus I can’t kick.

*The antibiotic I should be taking twice daily to kill said virus.

*My TZ phone when heading to town.

*My laptop which I needed in the office.

Forgetting everything listed above def meant that I spent a lot of time running in circles the last few days. I have also literally run in circles trying to meet my daily activity goal…wazungu!

I’ve done my fair sure of running in circles when it comes to my spiritual life as well. Here’s the beauty about a circle. You always end up back where you started, and God will always be there, loving you nonetheless.

 

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